I AM
By: Christain Yancy
“But we have this treasure in earthen vessels, that the excellence of the power may be of God and not of us. We are hard-pressed on every side, yet not crushed; we are perplexed, but not in despair; persecuted, but not forsaken; struck down, but not destroyed—”
II Corinthians 4:7-9 NKJV
Let me first start by saying that I do not write this to obtain sympathy but through this and through my life that God would be glorified. Never did I ever imagine that I, Christain Yancy, would be living with a chronic disease, a disease that medical science has deemed incurable. No, No, No, not just one illness but Lupus, Raynaud's disease, and endometriosis, which has left me as a 30 year old who has been married for 7 years with NO children. The latter disease subsequently leads to questions that causes the very core of me to cringe. Are you married? How long have you been married? You have any kids? Well, how old are you? What are you waiting for? And then there's the unsolicited advice, "well you better start because you don't want to be having children too old." All of these cause so much pain and I have had my fair share of pain physically and emotionally; but today the words I AM resounds deep within my spirit as God reminds me how he told Moses to tell the children of Israel I AM WHO I AM had sent him. So I write and as I write I can feel God and I sense a freedom that forces me to move beyond fear and boldly express who I am and who I am not. I am wounded, but I am not broken. I am damaged but I am not defeated. I am afflicted but I am healed. This liberty forces me to move into a place of faith where I have no choice but to relinquish control and depend completely on God. When God said that he was I AM WHO I AM, He was confident in who he was. He knew He was the Alpha and Omega and because He is my creator this empowers me to know who I am. As I look at myself in the mirror, I see that I am His. I am the creation of I AM WHO I AM. I am the daughter of a King. I am a fighter. So today I exchange my pain for passion. I exchange my pain for purpose. I exchange my pain for praise and pursuit. I will passionately and demonstratively take what the devil meant for bad and use it to glorify God. So whatever battle you may be facing, I want you to know that you are a product of the great I AM. Let's glorify God!
By: Christain Yancy
“But we have this treasure in earthen vessels, that the excellence of the power may be of God and not of us. We are hard-pressed on every side, yet not crushed; we are perplexed, but not in despair; persecuted, but not forsaken; struck down, but not destroyed—”
II Corinthians 4:7-9 NKJV
Let me first start by saying that I do not write this to obtain sympathy but through this and through my life that God would be glorified. Never did I ever imagine that I, Christain Yancy, would be living with a chronic disease, a disease that medical science has deemed incurable. No, No, No, not just one illness but Lupus, Raynaud's disease, and endometriosis, which has left me as a 30 year old who has been married for 7 years with NO children. The latter disease subsequently leads to questions that causes the very core of me to cringe. Are you married? How long have you been married? You have any kids? Well, how old are you? What are you waiting for? And then there's the unsolicited advice, "well you better start because you don't want to be having children too old." All of these cause so much pain and I have had my fair share of pain physically and emotionally; but today the words I AM resounds deep within my spirit as God reminds me how he told Moses to tell the children of Israel I AM WHO I AM had sent him. So I write and as I write I can feel God and I sense a freedom that forces me to move beyond fear and boldly express who I am and who I am not. I am wounded, but I am not broken. I am damaged but I am not defeated. I am afflicted but I am healed. This liberty forces me to move into a place of faith where I have no choice but to relinquish control and depend completely on God. When God said that he was I AM WHO I AM, He was confident in who he was. He knew He was the Alpha and Omega and because He is my creator this empowers me to know who I am. As I look at myself in the mirror, I see that I am His. I am the creation of I AM WHO I AM. I am the daughter of a King. I am a fighter. So today I exchange my pain for passion. I exchange my pain for purpose. I exchange my pain for praise and pursuit. I will passionately and demonstratively take what the devil meant for bad and use it to glorify God. So whatever battle you may be facing, I want you to know that you are a product of the great I AM. Let's glorify God!
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